6th October 2026
12 birthdays without Seth he never reached his 50th and today would have been his 62nd.
Over the last 12 years the world has changed, my life has changed, but the one thing that’s remained constant has been a deep yearning for Seth. 12 birthdays, no reason for celebration, nothing to celebrate, just a deep knowing emptiness.
All these years later, I crave his physical presence, his short stumpy fingers and warm protective hands, his funny little face, his characteristic limp, his love, his dry sense of humour, his jokes, his innate sense of right and wrong, his warmth, his curiosity and his unique take on life.
“Times a healer, life goes on, we learn to live around the grief and over time it gets smaller and doesn’t take up so much of your life.”
All these platitudes. the things that people say to you, the things that you tell yourself because you must. Because you have to get up each day and continue to move forward………but every day you miss the person who makes your life complete.
My life is incomplete.
It always will be without Seth.
Something that makes it bearable is the memory of all the love and the indelible impact Seth had on my worldview and the huge honour it was to have had Seth in my life.
As much as it was an honour to have had him in my life, the gaping hole his death left is still filled with raw and angry emotion.
Life can be so unfair ……. life is so unfair, but life is also wonderful and all the more wonderful for all the years I spent with Seth
Happy birthday Seth, I will love you with all of my heart forever.
