Stigma and Insight

Stigma and Insight

On Friday afternoon I found myself suddenly and unexpectedly in a dark, frightening and very uncomfortable place. I was back June 2014 in a supermarket standing before a huge great black chasm. I couldn’t move, I was fixed to the spot, shaking, shivering, sweating,...

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A Brown Trainer Box

A Brown Trainer Box

There has been a brown trainer box sitting on a shelf for the last four years. A box that once contained, a pair of size 9 Merrell trainers that belonged to Seth.I have often looked at the box. I have imaged I had just bought the trainers for Seth and that I was going...

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Inequality and Purple Stars

Inequality and Purple Stars

Pancreatic cancer two words that I use every day, two words that I truly hate, two words that took away all of my tomorrows and two words that are now part of the very core of me. This week I received a lovely Purple Star award from Pancreatic Cancer UK to recognise...

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Surrender and Expansion

Surrender and Expansion

I have learned many things in my life but who would have thought on that dreadful day in May 2014 when Seth and I were thrust unceremoniously into a world of palliative and end of life care, that the biggest lessons in my relatively short life would be learned over...

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The colours of death … Black White or Grey ?

The colours of death … Black White or Grey ?

I have learned many things in my life but who would have thought on that dreadful day in May 2014 when Seth and I were thrust unceremoniously into a world of palliative and end of life care, that the biggest lessons in my relatively short life would be learned over...

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Simple But Complex – Compassion

Simple But Complex – Compassion

My fundraising for Pancreatic Cancer UK started when Seth’s friends at Npower did a "Do Something For Seth Day" to raise funds just a couple of weeks after his diagnosis. They raise £1250 and that was matched by a donation from Npower. From here I decided to raise £1k...

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